#LOST

 i feel like i’m  surrounded by people but alone in this world like my heart is to big but cant stand up for it self making other have a good life but ruining mines to make other happy having a fake smiles every day just so i wont get stupid question my action  are just a front a border i put up to not get hurt and even tho i still get hurt it help me get away from the pain pain that been building up since i ant let goo of everything I Had the most precious Jewels in my hand and my insecurities  pulling  him away from me i try to protect him since that really the only thing i ever want and he close perfection in my eyes but all i done was push him away getting him mad and having argument i have lost my precious jewels Now i don’t knew what i can do :/ </3 But my Over thinking lead to my depression :[ and insecurities and failure